i am ashamed

My chest falls into an abyss
My lips yearn for your gentle kiss
My heart aches when I hear your name
I am ashamed.

The cigarettes I smoked today
The roses I hid away
This is a night I want to forget
So this is one I give to you instead

I could hide my shame,
Perhaps let you take some blame
But tonight I drown in my filth,
Cause I’m not read to lift the veil

I’m done defending this life I live
Ready to tell the tale of how I’ve failed
I am ashamed.